Not our timing.....E-mail update for Zac -

Well, we are home again. Big sigh! We arrived in Baltimore Sunday night, in preparation for the pre-op apt. on Monday. Zac woke up in the morning on Monday coughing. We thought that it may be allergies as he didn't seam to cough when we were away from the hotel room. I mentioned it at his apt., but the Ortho. folks don't really worry about those things, they leave it up to the Anesthesiology Dr.s to figure out, and we don't see them until the morning of surgery. Zac's surgery was supposed to be yesterday morning (Wed. am), which gave us an extra day for the possible allergies, to become a runny nose and even more of a cough. Yesterday morning we went just to let them make the decision to cancel the surgery. We thought that could be the very possible outcome, which of course was the case. The Anesthesiologist took one look at Zac, and said no way. Even though his lungs were clear, the body will fight against the anesthesia, as it is fighting the cold. Although we knew that this was the possible outcome, it was still a blow. It takes so much out of us to prepare emotionally, and physically with all the travel, etc., and here we are the second time of trying, and we still come home without surgery. It is a bit devastating. I am just going to be honest here, we have more questions than answers. The Dr.s said that we need to wait at least 4 weeks to make sure that he is cleared of the cold. We are really praying for direction. We are thinking that now we need to concentrate on taking care of ourselves, and get some things in order before we are ready to attempt this again. The thing is, there will never be a perfect time. We had thought that the sooner the better for Zac's development. We have tried, but for some reason, it was just not meant to be at this time.
Please pray with us as we make these decisions. It does not make sense to us, but we know that God is in control. I am praying that the next time the scheduled time for the surgery will be the right time, not just that the surgery will be done in the right timing. Most of all that God's perfect will be done. Please pray for grace and strength for us as we emotionally deal with these changes.
We will now focus on the job search, for both of us. We are unsure how all that will work out with timing, and new jobs. I really hope that we will not have to delay much longer, for Zac's sake. To be honest we feel that we are at the end of our rope again, and anticipate how God so often works when we are at the end of ourselves. I heard something this week saying that God helps those who are helpless, and we are all helpless. I think it is when we recognize our helplessness, that God works the best. We love Him so much, and we know that He loves us...we look to Him with anticipation.

We feel compelled to share, as it is for His glory, and how else will He get the Glory, if we do not share. Even as Jesus wept at the tomb of his friend Lazarus, He goes on to answer Martha's questions with this "Didn't I tell you that if you believed, you would see the glory of God?" John 11:40. We believe that God's timing is usually outside of our box, but he still cares about our distress.

Thank you,
LeAnn
James, Cai, and Zac